march 25 2022letter 1i have been feeling sad. loveless. lonely. negativity surrounds me everyday. just a blank stare at the wall. i don't feel like i am doing anything right. it feels like a curse.

april 12 2022letter 2maybe I have been taking myself too serious. my life isn't as important as i thought it was going to be.sometimes i just wish to be happy, no sadness, no guilt, no worries, no envying, no hypocrisy, and no evil around. i did realize i was asking got too much, it is what it is.

april 30 2022letter 3the phrase is simple. nobody's perfect. it's a fight with you everytime things go wrong. maybe i should be more grateful and less hypocrite when it's otherwise. it's the moments like yesterday that makes me think "is this really the life we're looking forward to?"might be toxicity. maybe it's me. i need to change. I don't feel comfortable talking with you sometimes. i have taken people away from me too many times, but i don't want you to go. for now. let's just wait.

may 4 2022letter 4maybe I have been taking myself too serious. my life isn't as important as i thought it was going to be.sometimes i just wish to be happy, no sadness, no guilt, no worries, no envying, no hypocrisy, and no evil around. i did realize i was asking got too much, it is what it is.

may 15 2022letter 5back then when your soul was present as well as my infant innocence. my mom would derange her thoughts on my mind. sometimes i wonder if having troublesome at such time was normal. i have been having worries for a long time, but when i was with you those situations vanished for loveable and bittersweet pictures.everytime i was with you, my subconscious took big pictures, panoramic. every little moment was worth living it. the pictures are still as vivid as back when i recorded them.i miss you. i pray for your soul to make me accompany, but I don't want you to see my darkest moments.i was hoping to get better musically before making this act, i blame myself. this one and more to come are for you, fanny.

may 15 2022letter 6we never met, but i look at you and i see myself reflected in your life, your memories, your work, your vision. your soul is still present in this world. this linage is a soundification of that. i tried, the result is how i felt it.this is inspired by you. i am aware your estate would charge me to do such, but i am not as big for now, i will act dumb. i know you will not mind, at all.after all, this is what you wanted.

june 10 2022letter 7i know it's not the end.life will prosper, for the good or the bad. I'm glad nothing lasts forever. even when i thought it was over it comes back, in the peaks or the lows. i have to learn to quit my hatred, time goes on and i still don't know how to love. maybe it's too late. maybe it's time to quit the maybes. make it a two way road.

july 30 2022letter 8all of my desires. all of my hopes. all of my dreams. all of my ideas.i know what you're thinking. you have nothing to do with this. but hey, you reached this point. I don't usually share my self deprecating thoughts, but i think this is a special moment. I'm looking forward for the next thursday. I'm excited. it's been on my mind for a while.